“To be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God be not blasphemed.” Titus 2:5
Throughout my teenage years and right into college I loved the idea of being a stay at home wife. Some may find it offensive or degrading that a woman should be home and taking care of the home but I love it. I have always found that calling to be such a high calling and a responsibility that I took so seriously.
Then kids came along. Now I got to be a stay at home mom- a job I loved even more than being a stay at home wife.
I loved the midnight feedings and the early mornings. I loved washing and folding little laundry. I loved the little shadow that followed me EVERYWHERE. I loved the cozy cuddles as we read books and the messy kitchen from baking.
Then something happened.
One day I grew tired of the little feet I heard following me into the bathroom. I grew tired of hearing “Mom, can you…?”
I no longer saw the joy in doing laundry or cleaning up the spilled milk. I began demanding my quiet time and pouting when I didn’t get it. (Read the Dangers of Me Time)
I came to the conclusion that what I needed was space. Space from my kids. Space from my home. Space from my responsibilities.
So I took space. It wasn’t offered or available…so I just took it.
I got tired of being the keeper of my home.
What did I find? What did I learn?
It wasn’t just one day I got tired of it. There was something happening in my heart that brought me to the point of no longer wanting to fulfill the role the Lord put me in.
I saw it coming, I saw it happening- but I didn’t address it. I let it grow. What was growing in my heart?
- Discontentment. I saw all those instagram photos (which are usually not realistic) and thought I should have that. I should have an hour to workout each morning. I should have the money to decorate my living room that way. I should have the weather to spend my mornings like that. I should have…I should have…I should have…I was no longer content with what I had or my situation in life. Instead of getting rid of that thinking I let it grow.
- Selfishness. I should have…I should have…I should have…turns into I will have…I will have…I will have…Selfishness causes a person to stop thinking about how their actions will affect others around them and do what they need to do to get what they want. I got selfish. I stopped thinking about the people I love and only thought about what I needed to do to get what I wanted.
When sin is growing in your heart like that you can’t please the Lord. You just can’t.
My daily chores and responsibilities that I once saw as something I was doing for the Lord changed into things I shouldn’t have to do all the time. This is because of the discontentment and selfishness growing in my heart.
I’d rather be out doing this or that. That is easier. I could think of a million reasons why I needed to go out instead of taking care of the home.
But when I finally saw my sin for what it is it was like my eyes were opened. When I am content with the place the Lord has me in life I can find joy in everything I do. When I am putting my husband and kids before myself I can find joy in everything I do for them. When I am doing things for the Lord and for His glory I can find joy in everything I do.
I can love being a keeper of the home and all the responsibilities that come along with it when my heart is in the right place.
Now I want to hear from you. Was there a time in your life you grew tired of being the keeper of the home? What encouragement do you have for us wives and moms who struggle with being content with this time of life? What do you do to keep things fun and exciting? Share with us!
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